2005. I went through this period when I was enamored with beautiful men and being seen with them, to prove to myself that I was attractive. I had this habit of sitting by the window at the now closed Lotus Tea Room in Chelsea, which had a wonderful koi pond inside right next to my favorite table. I was going to take my beautiful lovers there and take pictures of them for a series. But I only took two men there before the Tea Room closed, or I no longer needed the validation. I'm not sure which came first.